Some things

So it's been awhile. I don't actually have the internet at my house, except for this tiny patch of floor in my roommate's room so that could partially explain my lengthy absence. Or not, I'm not really sure. But I have some things in my brain that I would like to get out before I lose them, so why not use this venue?

First thing is that I am completely smitten by the song "Paperweight." I never knew I could love a Joshua song more than "These Photographs" but this one wins. Although it kind of breaks my heart now, because of the other thing. I don't really know what to say about that whole thing, except that I think it could have been something and it hurts that it wasn't. I maybe was too invested (no surprise there) but for some reason, this time it just felt different. Guess not. I don't know. I just wish there was a way to keep emotions out of things until you know for sure that it's a thing. But that just doesn't happen. One thing that completely drives me crazy about the whole dating experience though, is that every time I start to let someone in and give them a chance and start to think they might be different...they completely go the other way. And then I'm the fool, every time.

This is very silly. But to me, it wasn't. And I had to get these things out of my brain. Listen to Paperweight and fall in love with Joshua all over again.